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15 September 2010 @ 11:46 pm
She tells him her problems with me... and nothing else.

She doesnt even tell me. I'm so mad right now.
31 March 2009 @ 08:43 pm
Now that I'm better due to better music and deciding not to mope, listen to the song Annie Waits by Ben Folds...

It's really amazing and so true. so please listen to it. Thank you.

"Annie says you see this is why Id rather be alone.
And so
Annie waits, annie waits, annie waits
For a call
From a friend
The same
Its the same
Was it always the same?
Annie waits as the last..."

its all about disappointment... story of my life... at least there's good piano in my life.
Current Music: annie waits, ben folds
24 September 2008 @ 10:29 am
how to feel.

I love this song. It's my new favorite Ben Folds song.
Current Music: Cologne
14 January 2008 @ 05:51 pm

So I found something called the Dinseyland All-American College Band.

And its during the summer, they pay you, they provide housing and food for you...

and you get to dance and play your instrument.

Auditions are in Boulder on Feb 16th or so and you have to prepare certain pieces on the web site...


bummer, cuz that would have been fucking sweet.

I <3 disney

oh well, cest la vie (sp is wrong but w/e)
Current Mood: blahbummed
23 October 2007 @ 02:05 pm
Sally's Song:

I sense there's something in the wind
That feels like tragedy's at hand
And though I'd like to stand by him
Can't shake this feeling that I have
The worst is just around the bend

And does he notice my feelings for him?
And will he see how much he means to me?
I think it's not to be

What will become of my dear friend?
Where will his actions lead us then?
Although I'd like to join the crowd
In their enthusiastic cloud
Try as I may, it doesn't last

And will we ever end up together?

I like Nightmare Before Christmas...

3 more days.
10 January 2007 @ 03:37 pm
So i asked Kyle yesterday to snowball. I'm excited.

Still not exactly sure i understand what the theme is. But i dont really care. It should be whatever Lindsey, Christine and Riley want, since they're seniors.

Finals today, I had english and Gov.

English i got an 83% which is sweet, because i have a b overall which is what i was gonna get anyway :) and idk yet what i got in gov. im a little worried because i have an 82% in that class and it was a pretty hard final. im just glad its over.

Tommorow is Band, Science and Spanish... yay lol

Today was fun after tho, Katie and I went out to lunch and Andrew wanted me 'to see him' so i told him we were at red robin and it was funny cuz i saw him in the car heading west on arapahoe driving someone home and his hair is short!!! its crazy.

but yeah, he came and that was fun. katie sucks at doing magic, or assisting or w/e.

yep so thats the deal. Havnt talked to Chris in almost a month. I miss him. He was a great friend to talk to, especially since he didnt know anyone from my school.

Oh well.

Happy Finals!
Current Mood: soresore
21 December 2006 @ 12:12 pm
Dear Santa...

Dear Santa,

This year I've been busy!

Last Sunday I bought porn for tbnguru (10 points). In February I put gum in ticklemeelmo226's hair (-12 points). Last Friday I pushed tehdarkskitteh in the mud (-17 points). Last Wednesday I put money in mollymoo100's expired parking meter (14 points). In September I ruled Iran as a kind and benevolent dictator (700 points).

Overall, I've been nice (695 points). For Christmas I deserve a shiny red ball!


Write your letter to Santa! Enter your LJ username:

Yep, that's pretty funny if i do say so myself.

So I hope everyone's good. I'm fine. My parents decided since i'm leaving for half of the week next week and would only have 2 days with my presents, i get a present every day! So far I've gotten, the movie "Accepted" which is wonderful, a new sudoku book and a tetris game for my old gameboy color lol.

I just wanted tetris, and now that i can take it on the plane im thrilled! :)

As for stuff, not a lot's been going down.

I don't know how Rachel is, she's in the hospital for a skiing accident, at least as far as lindsey's told me.

Katies party's been postponed till friday and right now its looking like a possibility that i can go, since i cant leave my house to go to Nebraska.

Havn't heard from Chris since Sunday.... and I am not going to call him or text him. I don't want to.

Sean is ok. He came back from the hospital Monday, and is doing fine. I talked to him for a long time yesterday. He's so funny and nice, and so sweet to talk to. He made me feel a lot better, i mean snce ive been home this ENTIRE WEEK all i can think about is... well... how lonely i am and how much i really dont like this time of year. I keep going back and forth from loving it to hating it. I just wish that for once i could be happy this time of year!!! I was last year, but jordan and i were still fighting a bit and were like a rollercoaster, and i didnt think about my family and friends, just me me me.

I should go do comunity service, but since it's lookin like i cant even leave my driveway, ill go shovel it first.

Enjoy the snow.
Current Mood: contemplativecontemplative
Current Music: Joy to the world, Wind Machine
16 December 2006 @ 11:29 am
So an 85% ON MY MATH TEST!!! You're lookin at a free chick, with a C in her math class!!! FUCK YEAH!

haha, That made my break already.

So let's see. Yesterday was interesting all day, just lots of stuff goin on just he day before break.

Before school I was giving out candy canes, I offered one to Jordan and he said "I know you dont want to give me one anyway so just keep it."

I wanted to punch him in the face. See, that's when jojo would poke his eyes out with his fingers, mmmhmmm. yep. What a FACE! lol

First we watched the goonies in spanish, and it was just about the funniest experiance ever, i do suggest it if you're in a bad mood cuz you cant help but to laugh.

Second we all chilled, I talked with Peter and asked who he thinks I should hook up with in Florida, and he said Kyle... HA, kyle would never do anything of the sort :P

Thrid was band and that rocked, Lindsey asked Aarond to Snowball which rocks. She's gonna have a blast, he's a good dancer too lol. Riley asked if I was ok with it and I said yes. Duh, she'll have a lot of fun, and he's like my bro anway so it would be kinda weird... and also I had him for snowball two years ago so its her turn lol.

4th was english, we watched "One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest" It's a funny movie right now, but the book is SO SAD!!! Cheswick was my fav character cuz he's so harmless and helpful and i love him lol. But he committed suicide, sad day!

5th was really fun! Matt and Andrew rock my socks. We also gave the manager there cookies, because he's just about the nicest guy you'll ever meet!! :) AND HE GAVE US 6 FREE SLICES OF PIZZA TO SAY HAPPY HOLIDAYS!! He's so cool, His name is Joe :D

6th was science which was fun, I made an ornament, we tapped it up, mad a design, cut it out, dipped the zinc piece in chemicals and then it came out being copper on the parts we didnt cover, and it was cool! Mines a candy cane

7th was math, which was amazing! YAY 85%!

8th was fine, we watched the movie Enron. Very dumb.

After school got all my schtuff from the uniform closet and left.

Then I went home and sat on the couch for 50 First Dates, How to Loose A Guy In 10 Days, and Anchorman! YAY!

Oh, I also got a haircut, and I'm cute... I think. I'm still deciding if i like it or not.

Also Christine called me and was asking if I was ok with lindsey and Aaron going to snowball and I said yes again! Why do people think it's not ok?

I'm glad they at least talk to me, but Lindsey man I'm happy for ya! Ur gonna have a blast.

Now as for me and Chris. I talked to him briefly last night, through texts to let him no I got a C in math and I'm free now. It took him 3 hours to reply and he said "Great, good job! I'm proud of you!"

I replied asking when I get to see him cuz its been a while. He still hasnt replied....

I hate it.

Feeling this goddamn alone, and not good enough because theres always something wrong.

Another Christmas alone. Peace.
Current Mood: crushedcrushed
Current Music: Flavor of the week
08 November 2006 @ 05:22 pm
I got an 84% on my math test and who knows how thatll bring up my grade, i guess on the answer key she gave it a wrong answer so origionally i got a 80, but she was wrong so she gave us all 4% back. YAY lol

Hopefully thisll help my grade, g2g, mucho hw.

l8r kids
07 August 2006 @ 11:25 pm
I talked to Chris last night. He is doing really well.

It's funny... I asked him how his girl status is, and he said there's a list of girls wanting to be his, but he doesn't want any of them.

I think he may be holding out for me. I'm not getting my heart set... but it would be nice. Dating someone from another school means your friends dont cause drama that includes the boyfriend, you really do have a lot about to talk when you do talk, and you will want to go on real dates on the weekends because you havnt seen eachother.

If something happens, then it does.

It was really funny, and yet sad because im so gullable. What happened was, he told me that he wasn't planning on going to any dances at all this year, not participating in anything spirit related, and doesnt want to have a girlfriend to ruin his senior year.

And I FLIPPED at him!! I yelled at him about how he's only this age once in his life, and that he'd regret it when he's older. And he led me on the entire night about it. Then right before we hung up he told me he was just pullin my chain because he wanted to see if I really care about him, and if I'd ever consider dating him or going to a dance with him.

I then told him he was a jack ass for doing that, but very clever and (Yet again) a very good liar. We hung up laughing, it was nice.


Anyhow, I told Chris all about Jordan. And he told me I've done everything I can, but I told him I don't think I have, and he said "Then you havn't, you know what you're capable of, and usually gut feelings are right. Think about it."

I have, and I know there's something I'm missing... I just don't know what it is.... what I should do to show him how sorry I am....

Through all last night, I couldn't think of even dating Chris, because the only one on my mind was Jordan. It's how it's been for a while now. How I could be so horrible, how I could treat someone so badly.... I don't even see how I could do that. Chris couldn't either.

He was suprised, and asked "Wait? You did that...?"

I'm a horrible person guys....

I wish I could do something to get his forgiveness.... to have him want to trust me again, have someone to relly on and who rellys on me.... I miss it.
Current Mood: sleepysleepy
Current Music: Whats Left Of Me, Nick Lachey